Looking for a couple of fics...

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I hope somebody here can help me find these. I read them both recently, I THINK on LJ, but I can't remember the titles or authors and, idiot that I am, I didn't put them in my memories.

The first one is Spander. Xander had returned from Africa pretty messed up. I think Spike had Shanshued after NFA, and was working in a sex shop when Xander found him, living with Illyria. May be part of a series?

The second is a Spangel story. After escaping the Initiative, a broken Spike winds up in LA with Angel. When they go back to Sunnydale to "get Spike's balls back" they are both captured by the Initiative and Spike is horribly brutalized. There was a part in it where Angel tells Spike that he is afraid Spike is losing his mind because they have the exact same conversation every time Spike regains consciousness.

Thanks in advance!

-Lisa