going out of my mind

[scorpion-cat.livejournal.com]

Hey! I'm going crazy looking for this fic, I remember it is set after the end of the series were the scoobies are training the slayers and buffy (who's on her own) comes back with a box that has a whole library in it. Then Spike appears and he keeps turning everything he is in contact with white (clothes, etc) he has wings, has lost his soul, and is supposed to fight the first by drinking the blood of the slayers who are corrupted. Then they discover he is a serafin? and there were other parings including Xander/andrew, Faith/wood.
If anyone can please help me!!! didn't sleep yesterday looking for this and it's driving me nuts.
Thank You!!!!!!!