looking for a ff

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hi I hope for so much that you can help me.
I am looking for a splendid spuffy ff that after having had some problems with my pc I have not found anymore. Then I remember that the fanfiction was very long and is separated in various books. And the title of every chapter was similar to of the refrains or things of the kind. Then Buffy and Spike are having a child and they have to hide him from everybody because the Initiative is returned to Sunnyhell and it is very interested to Buffy. there are of the demons freed by Spike from the jails of the initiative that help Buffy and Spike. Sam the wife of Riley dies because The initiatives has involved in something of very dangerous and wicked. Despaired Riley helps spike and buffy to run away. Then Dawn disappears because the key has to revive as daughter of Spike and Buffy. Our heroes now have to leave Sunnydell and the scoobygang to save them daughter. This way it ends the first book it seems me. I fear not to have given you enough details however I hope indeed that you will help me because this was one of the most beautiful ff that has ever read.kiss