spuffy shorts

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I'm looking for a great short fic that has a companion short of the other side. In the first, Buffy is somehow in a normal life with Angel as her fiance, both human and she with no memory of Sunnydale, but she can't get rid of a sense of wrongness and dreams of blue eyes and flames. She spots Illyria as a strange blue woman. She finds out Angel had made a deal with Wolfram and Hart to give her to him while Spike suffers in a hell after NFA. In the end, Buffy runs from Angel and finds Spike and brings him to a hotel room or something and they tell each other they love each other and something in the shape of Fred pops in to tell them it's a happy ending and Buffy isn't being forced to love him like she was with Angel. The companion fic is from Spike's view, being tortured and told to make a deal like Angel did. But he makes a deal in the end just for Buffy to be happy, asking nothing for himself. The lawyer torturing him is angry, claiming he can't make a selfless deal. Apparently that lets him out and Buffy appears, and another happy ending idea.

I really like these fics, but I can't remember the author. Some help?