Xander if forced to join Spike and Dru

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 There's a story that's been on my mind for the last week and I can't remember where it is or who wrote it.  It's a Xander/Spike slash story that starts with Spike's first appearance at parent/teacher night.  Angel isn't the goody two shoes he pretends to be with Buffy.  When he offers Xander to Spike, Spike sees through his game and Angel runs off, leaving Xander behind.  He tells Buffy he was overpowered and plays her like a flute.  Xander is unharmed but when he makes it back to the Scoobies, Angel has them thinking otherwise.  They lock Xander in a room and when he overhears Buffy and Willow planning to check him for demon possession with a spell that will hurt or kill him if he's not possessed, he feels he has no choice but to sneak out and go back to Spike and Dru.  Spike merely threatens Xander but doesn't hurt him, and Dru likes him, so he feels more welcome with the vamps than with the 'good guys'.  He shows Dru her first vampire movie, complete with pop corn, which she finds amusing, and gives Spike pointers on beating Buffy at her own game.  When Spike has his people looking for and translating that book, on Xander's advice they laid a trap for Buffy using cheerleaders and jocks at a kegger.  The vampires got away clean when the humans started fighting Buffy, tearing clumps of hair out of her head.  I don't think this story was ever finished.

Spike learns that he never lost his soul when Dru sired him

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I'm trying to remember a Spuffy story.

I think that even Spike is wondering why he is different from other soulless vampires. At some point, Angel admits to Buffy that he thinks something different happened when Dru sired him, and that he never actually lost his soul. I remember that Spike either overhears this, or Buffy or Angel tell him, and he becomes very upset and confused.

Ring any bells?

ETA: Found! Thank you to kimbersdm for helping me!  It is from Shades of Grey, by Dee Bradfield (http://www.fanfiction.net/u/217324/Dee_Bradfield).  (It's the first of 4 stories in her LinkVerse series.)