Xander under a spell, Willow bashing?

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Hi!

So it's been a while since I read in this fandom so my memory is quite vague. All I remember is that Willow wants to know something about Xander. She decides to cast a spell to make him tell the truth but she gets it wrong. Xander falls into some kind of coma and the Scooby Gang and Angel's crew see his worst memories? I think he was beaten and raped when he was younger... They see his memories like ghosts that appear and disappear. They are like visions that appear in front of whoever is in the room, Anyway, everybody is pissed at Willow, and I don't remember how it ends. I think it was slash because it was what I read usually but it also could be gen.
Hope someone will know what I'm talking about!
Ptijade

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