Cursed Xander fic

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Hi! This is a fic I read several years ago and now I can't find it at all. In it, some of the scoobies (I think Giles, Buffy, maybe others) were cursed into some kind of sleep or coma, and Xander made a deal to get them to wake up again. The price for his deal was that he had to go be the slave of some demon, but also that the scoobies would hate him and believe that he was the one that cursed them in the first place, and that everything they said they thought should happen to him would literally happen. So like, Dawn said at one point "I wish Xander would just spill his guts." and he basically got eviscerated. Eventually they find him as the slave of this demon but they still hate him and part of the deal was that he couldn't tell them what he had done to save them. I think they take him to the hyperion and they keep him as a prisoner.
I remember that it was very long and in the end, things still weren't "fixed". even though the scoobies did eventually figure out what really happened, it was a fic big on the hurt and little on the comfort. Thanks for helping me find it!