looking spike wallpaper

[lilashannah.livejournal.com]

Looking for a spike wallpaper ..my computer got wiped out and I'm trying to find all the stories jihads and wallpapers. The o e I really looking for. Is spike with white wings, in a church facing left. He's naked but you can't see any of his boy bits.
I have part of a tag "CanIRestNowWithoutmuse" but still can't find it.
I'm also looking for a story about spike being chained up in a cave by angel and Buffy finds him, feeds him and they end up having sex.anyone remember that one?
Thank you for your help ahead of time.