In Rome

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I read a fic a while ago that Spike goes to Rome after he becomes solid again, but when he gets to Buffy's she isn't exciting to see him and he realizes that he was right. Buffy only said that she loved him because he was dying and she wouldn't have to worry about actually having a relationship with him, after realizing this Spike takes off.

There might be more to the story, but I can't remember. Any ideas of where I can find this story are greatly appreciated.