a fic where Spike learns that he's always had his soul

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Hello, does this sound familiar to anybody?  I remember a fic where Spike has feelings or "stirrings" as if he has a soul, and it is confusing to him.  After a conversation with Angel, it turns out that Drusilla botched up the process of turning Spike, and that Angel had to complete the process for her.  Also, as a result, Spike's soul never left, but was just buried deep inside.  Thanks for any help!  

ETA - I forgot to mention that this is a Spuffy fic. 

ETA2 - Found it! Shades of Gray, by Dee Bradfield (thanks, Anonymous poster!)