Seeking Spangel story

[spikesjojo.livejournal.com]

I remember one scene of the story - Angel is mad at Spike and forces him to sing for Lorne at Caritas. While Spike does a terrific job singing, Angel suddenly remembers the music teacher he had once gotten for Spike, and he remembers torturing the music teacher to death in front of Spike while making Spike sing and the music teacher keep time as he is dying in agonizing pain..

I've been looking through my tons of bookmarked fiction and I can't remember either the title or author. I'm pretty sure this is one of the Spike goes to Angel - probably for the chip - and I suspect Connor may be a baby, but I may be wrong on that part.

Help?

Saved fic?

[killedkelly.livejournal.com]

I came across this fic that was up last year but the journal has been deleted. It was by pervertedpompom and called 'I'm Alive,' where Spike encounters some sort of demon and runs to Angel. I know it's set after the chip and I think the demon gives him his soul and he wants Angel to fix him. Anyway, I was wondering if anyone had a copy  of this fic and could send it to me?
Please and thanks