Looking for a fic, need some help with my poor memory.

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I don't have the time to skim through the hundreds of stories I have read and saved so I am hoping someone else can remember. I am looking for a story, I can not remember if it is a stand alone or part of a series, and the only thing that I remember is that Spike and Buffy had made their deal that Spike would help her with Angelus and she would allow him to leave safely with Dru unharmed. After the deed was done, Spike was fleeing with Dru and Xander, even though he knew of the agreement, attempted to dust Spike by shooting him with a crossbow. Spike then looked at Buffy with a betrayed, sad look and left with the unconscious Dru. I think that there was already feeling developing between Spuffy , they may have already even slept together, and that Buffy was very angry with Xander and feared that Spike may never return. But of course he did...........................
That is all I remember. Anybody have a better memory than me? Thanks!