Looking for a Spike/Xander

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Hi, I'm looking for this fic I read a long time ago, I think it was Spike/Xander pairing but I could be wrong, that just tends to be my go to pairing.

Xander felt really bad after staking Jesse and went back and picked up his ashes and buried them. He did not tell Willow or Buffy what he did. He kept wondering about if vapires really had souls or no or if something of the original remained.

Please help, Thanks.

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[(Anonymous)]

Could it be Nothing the Same Book 1-3 by Orchidluv on Spanderfiles?
http://spanderfiles.com/arvs/orchidluv/nts/nothing.html