Spike, Buffy and a strap-on?

[hunenka.livejournal.com]

 Hi people,

there was this long fic in which at some point Spike persuades Buffy to fuck him with a strap-on. Buffy's in an emotionally unstable state and she hurts Spike. (I hope I remember this right...)

I thought it was in one of Herself's fics, but I guess I'm just stupid because I wasn't able to find it.

Any help is welcome!

Thanks!

Season 4

[spikeslou.livejournal.com]

I could kick myself for not remembering this one, seeing as I found it last year.  Ah well.   Chipped Spike stays with Giles, and Buffy has just started to be friends with Riley.  To fool Riley, everyone pretends he's Buffy's wimpy English cousin William.  It works, and there's a scene at the Bronze where the Initiative pals get rough when they think William is dancing too close to Buffy.  It's making me nuts!!  If found , I promise not to lose it again!  Thanks.